With a wave of the surgical wand, a new being was born in this world and she catapulted me into motherhood in a single second of existence!!! Motherhood had arrived just like that….!! The 9 month preparatory time provided by god did not suffice….one can never prepare to embrace motherhood…it just happens and dissolves into you and takes time to permeate into your waking conscience! And the pain one has to endure to cross over from pregnancy to motherhood is unlike any mental or physical pain ever encountered by a human (now I am positive)! And beyond the pain comes that trembling moment when a little something is thrust into your arms..yours to keep forever, to nurture..a wholesome being that you brought into this world..it’s an incredibly overwhelming moment!!
And from that moment on, the words ‘nappy’ and ‘feed’ enter your world and you realize that it controls, governs and directs every moment of your life..there is no sidelining, no ignoring it…it will keep you awake and alert..sleep or no sleep, sick or healthy, favourite movie on TV, hungry or happy….these two shall dominate your existence..my first lessons of motherhood! As you stumble and try to perform your duties, you realize that this is the closest you will get to understand the pains that your parents went through…a new found respect and awe for your parents appear in between your ‘motherhood stretch marks’.
You see your world revolving around that little bundle….she becomes the axis, circumference and center of the universe… As I grapple with the transformation that unfolds and try to assimilate the power of the term ‘my daughter’…I also realize the responsibility that it brings along..its a scary and overpowering feeling….I guess I am buckling up for the journey ahead!
