It’s been two years of Nanda in our existence and our
world is spinning with the changes that come along….Changes that are too fast
and too pronounced……..and I miss those changes……Her baby smell that is slowly fading……Her
pulpy juicy baby fat arms and legs that have given way to bony limbs….Her
toothless grin being the top on that list of things missed! She is slowly and
steadily losing that treasured naive innocence and inviting those age-old
rascals called ego and anger.
But the nature and impact of changes in me is probably
even more startling than hers……..what discipline and good behaviors that years
of schooling, books and self-motivation could not do..in one stroke a child can
make those miracles happen……I respond to a morning wail and cry much better
than any alarm that I have subjected myself to…I can actually switch off that
TV when I know she is watching it with me..I can get myself to keep back that
big bar of chocolate when her outstretched arms ask for more.. I can contain my
fury outbursts when she is around..I can have my meals without the presence of
TV noise…I can say NO to a tempting outing if kids are not allowed..so many ‘ I
cans’ that I never realized I was capable of! And the one virtue that evaded my
existence and which has now come back with a vengeance is PATIENCE…that old
chap definitely gets to play god in our ‘motherly’ lives.
Guess it is the natural way of things and we are but
onlookers. Parenting and childhood are concepts that one never bothers to think
about till you are thrown into the game..and then your hidden skills are tapped
into..your erstwhile skins are shed and you embrace the moment..a moment that
will never repeat in your motherhood era!
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